Yes.. it has been one year. Through the happiness, whinings, complaints, occassional bliss and my many PMSes (poor guy!) .. we celebrated our One year anniversary last weekend.  It started off with dinner at Equinox on Friday. We almost postponed the dinner cos his mom was hospitalised during the week. It was nothing serious, an infection, just that the doctor want to do the anti-biotics through injections so suggested that she to be hospitalised for ease of the injections. But sometimes... hai.... nevermind that is for another post.
So we started the weekend with dinner at equinox. The scenary was super nice, so is the ambience; but the service was really lousy! It is worse than the restaurants out in the street. I was so disappointed and irritated! When you are paying that kind of money.. you expect certain kind of service! Basically only 1 or 2 of them are Singaporeans, the rest are non-locals and they either can't understand or they can't be bothered with you. And apparently only the locals can take order for food! So we waited almost 20 mins before someone come to take our orders. Before that we waited for another 15 mins before we were shown to our seats! And yes, we did make a reservation. -_-
Oh well... it was still an experience! And I do appreciate the dear bf for making the effort to suprise me with dinner at Equinox and flowers!
 Me with my flowers!!!

 My main course - Pigeon. It's quite yummy but a bit too much fats for me!

His main course - Snapper! I like this better actually!

 Us! When the lift door open... I was really embarrassed! hahaha.

After the dinner at Equinox, it was off to Bintan the following day. Note to self, never packed at last minute! Was rushing like mad cos I erm.. left the packing till saturday morning and as usual I cannot pack light hahahaa. The poor bf was stuck carrying my bag for the whole trip. No more aching shoulders hahaha! It was a relaxing weekend gateaway... nothing much but eat and erm.. eat!
  My slave for the weekend!

It was raining on and off quite a bit (thunderstorms here & there) during the weekend.. so didn't head to the beach but just spent time lounging at the poolside and swimming in the rain... Played some pool.. eat and nuah the weekend away.  But there was way too much mozzies and insects for my liking. Yes I am a citygirl! And the things are so expensive over there! Honestly I think Redang was much better but the swimming pool over there is better though..
 

When I reached the resort, I realised I has been there before! We went there during the KPMG retreat.. wasn't that impress then and still am not impress now. Bleah. But I know e bf likes it (he likes a lot of things! yes yes I am the picky one in the relationship hah) and he want to shares it with me. But seriously, it is not that great. But we might be trying Bali the next time and actually I am still keen to go back to Redang.. oh well.. But the next time I expect planes rides!!! And dear dear paying!!! haha. Apparently the bf is old fashioned in the sense that he feels that he should be one paying for the trip, who am I to questioned him? lalala.

And with that it ends a weekend of relaxation and constant whinings of "dear dear itchy! Mopitko!" hahhaah

Yes I am a pampered kid =)
 

It is sunday.. it has been a pretty long break for me.  Hasn't been feeling well over the last week... officially fell sick on Wednesday, was given 2 days mc by the doctor and spent the whole 2 days sleeping away. And then it was Good Friday! So by right, I should have a long enough break and rest right? But I am still feeling like shit. I couldnt really sleep on friday and saturday nights, interupted with lots of dreams and restless turnings hai. I wonder why? Do I have to be sick and take my medicine to have a good sleep? Or maybe I should abstain from my coke light after 6pm? Heh. Anyway I am just feeling tired today. Regretted taking my morning coffee because I know that even if I was to go and take a nap now I couldn't being able to nap well... but I am feeling pretty goggy that I don't feel like doing any proper work.
But I really need to finish off the last bit of the minutes and start on the new team tomorrow. No more pretending and wishy washy.. I have officially transferred to the Reporting Team. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!! I didnt ask for the transfer, in fact, I told my big boss quite point blank that I do not want to do accounting/reporting and I do not want to do what Guy F is doing. Guess what? I am taking over 80% of Guy F stuffs while he move on to something more interesting! Each time I think about it, I get angry and emotional all over again. N nope, I didnt get a promotion or promise anything.. i just got force into something I hate. N of cos I got totally played out by my lovely boss. I just love my boss and my company! I am so working hard to find a job! If not I am just going to let myself be a tai tai =P
I am pretty troubled and angry over my situation, I am stuck in something i hate and until I found another job I am stuck. And becos of this I am giving myself alot of pressure and of cos I am sulking and dragging myself everyday to work. I think the reason why I am falling sick so often is because of this whole negative energy. I so want to go "da xiao ren"! Grrllll... typing this is making me angry again.
I am not going to accept this rubbish from her! I don't believe that I cannot find another job or company... at the most I will go back to study for the time being and live off my dear hahaha. Or I will rather take a pay cut than work for someone who has no integrity and no basic respect for others. Who don't promote based on hardwork but based on whatever agreement that she has such that she can promote someone who has been on no paid leave for 1.5 years and 4 months (not maternity!) leave respectively.  And who just kicks people around like a ball and making empty promises and threats at the same time.
Someone find me a job!!!!!!! If not I will probably end up being a crazy and bitter woman!
I need to go pray... pray that something will work out soon... pray that I will get out of this horrible, evil place soon.
Actually I don't think the rest of the company is that bad... okie I think I reserve my comments on that. But those who know where I am working and is a customer.. dun worry, my company is just shit to the employees but they are really really great to the customers. I am not kidding, I can vouch for their greatness to you guys, you lucky dogs! hahaha

Bleah, I am seriously worried about my sanity.

I have began talking to my stuff carebears and answering for them. Yes, I know it is pretty normal for me, but I am doing it in office! Usually I hide it and only do it in the secret of my room, infront of my close friends. But I am now talking and answering on their behalf in office! Infront of my colleagues! I am very very worried for myself. Hai.. It's all dear fault! If he wasnt so upset/angry previously, I would have insisted and taken the prior job offer and wont be in this situation. Okie forget it, I will probably be bitching and talking to my things in another environment, but then again, I would have just been a crazy woman rather than a crazy bitter woman. Grrl. Help! I am really going crazy!!!
Pray for me! Pray that I get out of this shit, pray that people will like me and hire me! Pray that I will get away from her evil clutches soon. And oh I really hate reporting. WTF.

I am supposed to be 1)Cycling at ECP right now, but due to the fact that my friend fly my kite at 3am tis morning, I am here updating my blog instead and 2) I am supposed to be finishing my minutes (I hate doing minutes!) but here I am updating my blog instead.
I told myself that I am going to start uploading some photos and good memories of dear and me,  hahah so that I can look back in future and go like.. 你以前不是这样的! hahaha. But my dear is actually waiting for me to finish up the minutes so that he can do his part. I am abusing my relationship with my boss haha but I was sick yesterday! haha.

Anyway we celebrated pre-valentine day on the friday before. You know for once I can walk among the many couples holding flowers etc on v-dae, it has to be chu yi... seriously. Anyway, we agreed it was to be a low-key celebration, no expansive present etc..  so i happily assumed so. I just got him a polo shirt from Espirit HK.. He turned up to pick me up.. and he presented me with this:
 So sweettttttt!!!! I was very suprised when I got this. Okie I figured I should be getting flowers, but I didnt expect it to come so nicely and with the bear! I got a smaller bear when he first asked me... so now.. the bigger one is named "Fat fat bear bear" and the smaller one is called "not so fat bear bear" I am the not so fat one in case you people are wondering hahaha
 my two cute bears!
And and I also got a bracelet from SK..  I was very suprised and felt totally bad.. cos compare to him I didnt put in much effort.. Well in my defense I was busy. I cut short my HK trip, so I didnt hve much time over there, and when I was back in S'pore, I was rushing around for him and also work started really busy.. n CNY stuff to do and oh yeah, his birthday presents also... But no excuses... But but I was really touched and happy =) He is soooooooooo sweeeeeeeeetttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt (at times) haha.
Sometimes, after 7 months, I still cannot believe that he is with me.. it still feels surreal..  of cos at times he drives me totally mad.. In fact somewhere this week I took to ignoring him bleah. N of cos he got pretty upset that I was ignoring him. But he was so irritating and just made me angry -_-

*On a side note* My only friend fly my kite at 3.12am this morning after we arrange to go cycling this morning at 10am. So after waking up early and seeing her msg, I suggested that we go cycling later this afternoon then, apparently my only friend has movie plans! So basically she has planned her whole day and just fly my kite. Blardy hell, I was looking forward to cycling/blading at ECP and catching up as it has been quite a while since we met up, even borrowed the car from my brother and of cos I woke up early just to get my kite fly just early in e morn that we were supposed to go ECP. Excellent. Whatever lah.

Anyway I better finish my blog off and start doing my minutes! Maybe I should just head to the gym later. Okie okie focus.
So on chu er, it was his birthday! We went to Marina Mandarin to celebrate. I reserve dinner at Aquamarine...  the food was good and they serve us complimentary yu sheng!
 It was really quite funny. In our eagerness to lao yu sheng, we started pouring all the condiments plus saying the well-wishes ourselves, halfway through, the server came over with the yu sheng and told us that they hvnt put it in yet hahhaha. And even came with instructions how it should be done, but in our haste, we have already pour everything without the fish haha. But the food at Aquamarine was not bad (def much better that Crowne Plaza!!!!!) but I was a bit disappointed in the crabs. I guess.. you really cannot beat the proper crabs places! And of cos how can a birthday has no birthday cake:
 I ordered the crunchy hazelnut cake from Senses Patisserie. The cake is yummy! And I have to say I am quite impress with the lady mending the Dining Express. She actually remember my name! I called to pre-order the cake and then I call again to make the reservation for dinner. N she remembered me when I call to confirm the reservation the night before. I am impress! This is what good service is! N so my dear is 1 year older.. and now we are 6 years different in age hahaha. I keep saying he is lao kok kok uncle heehee. But yes.. it was a nice celebration (so i self-declare haha)
 

On another side note, congratulations my friend. I am very happy for you! =))  This is surely a good new year! =)
 

 My third blue box! The first one was from Liling & Leonard for my 21st birthday. Yes Liling, I still have the pair of earrings. I never lose them =) And the 2nd was the one from QH last year, and now I got a pair of dangling earrings from her. Per QH, the reason why it is dangling and not studs, it is cos she is worried that I will lose the studs. I am such a klutz. -_-
After dinner, headed over to Hilton, when I got my 2nd birthday cake.. and the lounge singer actually sang me a birthday song... And then a sign of old age... even before 12am, I was yawning away and telling QH let's go home. Bleah. And my only friend was partying hard at Zouk! Where has my energy level go to? I slept at 12ish-1 am on my birthday! OMG!!!!

And.. finally it is the actual day! It was actually quite rush and uncertain for me. Something crop up in his family.. so plans were put on hold and changed. But in the end, it was still all good.. caught Avatar 3D. It was pretty awesome.. the graphics etc... It was kind of a scientific/fantasy type of movie. Daphne wrote down her thoughts on the movie and I shall share a quick one too. What I felt was a kind of colonalism again. The white man dominating the indigenous people, how doing things to "better their lifes", giving them education etc, and of cos at the end of it, it was all for money.  As Jake said in the movie, there is nothing they have that the indigenious people want! They are very happy with what they have, what beer etc who cares about that! It just made me think, those red indians and other indigenious people. They were probably very happy with their own lifes and cultures and then the white man came thinking themselves as superior and justifying what they do by saying it is to better their lifes. I guess in terms of technology and standard of living, the indigenious people might not be as good as the white man. But honestly, they are happy, so why should people force other people to live what they deemed as good? It also reminded me of something my history tutor told us. The Malays were happily leaving in their fishing village many many many years ago... and suddenly other people came in, the Europeans, the chinese etc. And they were forced to change their lifestyle to suit the fast-pace life. It was fishing no more, fishing is slow and lazy, u got to do business, trade blah blah. And their lifestyle was looked down upon. But before all this happen, they were just very happy fishing people. It was their culture and nature. Okie.. enuff blabbering.. back to presents!
I got this for my birthday!

I really like the pendant... heh actually I already suspected I will be getting a pendant + white-gold necklace for my birthday. Cos... as I was packing my stuff , I realise i lost my white gold necklace was pretty upset and niaming to him that I need to go buy one.. he told me to wait till after new year. Cos will have sales afte 01/01/2010. Seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyy hahaha. So yep, but the pendant is really nice! But I whine that the flowers is too small.. other people got bigger wan.. and of cos he told me he purposely choose 3 stalks cos got meaning wan..... *roll eyes* 99 stalks also got meaning! Reminded me of what hanyang told the gf when he proposed that time hahah. Okie i shall not complain heh. Then of cos my birthday cake:
 
We actually cut the cake at T3. Dinner was supposed to be at Fairmount/Swissotel there.. but due to the family emergency.. we got to change to the airport. Oh well...  I told him I will let him make it up to me and bring me to Equinox next time=)
Count down was spent at ECP. Yes Daphne I went to see the flares again. THe flares this year was much nicer than last year. I realise the position is better. We were at BK that side, the flares were really pretty, got a lot, unlike last year... .
And today is my lunar birthday! And I am waiting to eat crabs (yesh, again) with Hanyang and Eileen.. sigh, wonder if I will get my mian xian also. Sometimes it is hard between being understanding and wanting more.. *shrug* anyway at least I will be having crabs *yeah* Poor Eileen & Hanyang, hahahha.
Tomorrow is 2nd Jan and also the wedding dinner of our dear friend, Louise. Going to meet the Melbourne gang for K-lunch first.. and sunday is Jiazhen baby's first month and then off to meet Liling and Leonard for dinner. I really need to exercise and not just think!!!!! Thinking do not burn calories.. bleah.
 

Okie after the blissful entry previously.. I decided that to be fair.. I should share some of the not so blissful stuffs.
First, he is very naggy! I told him that he and my mom can be great friends!
Grrl... most of my friends should not that I hate it when my mom tell me to go bathe ah, sleep early ah, stop going online till so late and nag at me at my room... guess what I now have Mom no.2... The first thing that the bf says to me when he call me is not.. dear I miss you or dear how are you.. but but..... have you bathe yet? Kaoz. For the record I do bathe! Maybe not very early.. but definitely I do bathe! I am lazy just hate to miss my tv show mah haha. Grrl. Anyway that is the story of my life now, I have Mommy and Mommy No.2.

Then he took part for the SCB half marathon this morning... there I was rushing down to meet him for bkfast after his run (of cos, i am in love not insane, I don't run 21km hahah) . After bkfast we drove back to my place to drop me off as well as to collect this cushion cover (we went to ikea yesterday to get 2 cushions for me for his car). I wanted him to come up and just nuah with me, watch some tv. I was feeling lazy and didnt want to go to vivo or anywhere to eat or walk around. Anyway he was aching after his 21km so it was a perfect idea right? Just laze around and watch tv. Stupid boy tell me he need to go home to check on his parents, after his brother already told him that he will be home the whole day so don't need to worry. Seriously I got quite irritated with him. We wanted to do a small trip together (his suggestion! his idea!) but in the end after saying for weeks & weeks that he need to check with his brother on the schedule to ensure that someone is at home. We are staying in Singapore afterall. I can perfectly understand his concern for his parents, but his brother is at home! Hai.... Grrllll i don't mind so much about not going on trip, I was just unhappy that he just keep dragging and dragging when in the first place it was his idea & suggestion to begin with! And to top if off today... I am just not very happy with him. At least he is smart enough to realise that. Grrlll... so now he is checking his schedule (AGAIN) and see if he can cme over my place for dinner. Seriously what is so hard about that? Why do I need to be angry, throw tantrum before he get how important it is to me? I am a lazy girl, sometimes I just want to nuah at home and watch some tv. Of cos, it didnt help that he said my room is messy. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

Yi Hua is not very happy today. In fact, it has temporarily wipe away how nice he was on friday. How he insisted on going down to Novena square cos I mentioned I saw on a blog a dress that I like there. How we went down only to realise that it was at square 2... (silly me) and how he went searching for that little shop with me and bought me the dress... even though he has been nagging about my spending and shopping habits.. hai.. but but.. all this don't count now! I just just want him to spend some time with me at my place and not always rushing here and there! and and... smetimes I just want to be a bitch but but... my inner being just prevent me to be bitch... sometimes it is a pain to be 好人... hahhahahahahahahah

Anyway the 1st among our group of friends is now a mommy. Wow... sometimes I still get shocked by that idea. I am still such a baby (evidant by the ranting above) Baby Jayden arrived in the world on 5th Dec... congrats Jz and Gary!! And now I am envious of Jz..... nope not cos of the baby ( I love to play with babies only, apart from that for now, I still enjoy being my mommy's baby) but cos she has 4 mths of maternity leave!! She dun need to work tomorrow unlike me! sob sob............ Sunday blues =(

I told myself I should blog this down before I get busy with life, get angry with things or simply just plain forget about it...
And of cos as Daphne said when I get super frustrated and irritated with him, I should think about things that have made me go awwwwww.... to balance things up hahaahha.

Decided to tag along to go jogging with him on Friday. We weren't supposed to meet that day, his plan was to go Bedok Reservior to run to train for his half marathon.. while mine was just to nuah and accompany mommy for a wedding dinner that night. In the end, he came over to pick me up to do a run together. The sky was overcast and rainy at my area, but the east was still bright and sunny.... so off we went!

We started the jog together and soon we split up due to differ speeds haha. Usually he will cater to my speed, jogging along side with me encouraging me.. but that day he wanted to do serious training for his half marathon... so... he went ahead with his jog. He had told me to turn back after certain marker distance as that area is quite deserted.. so there I was happily jogging along at my own speed... I began to hear thunder... optimistic me figured it will be quite a while before the rain starts... but... soon I felt raindrops falling on me. I began to turn back. Well I was at 1.5km distance.. and the whole round was 4.3km.. figured it will be faster to turn back. As the rain got happier, I didn't know I could actually run that fast! I have been too lethargic in my run! haha. I wanted to cover as much distance as I can, cos I figured he will be looking for me. The rain got too big, I finally stopped at 1 of the little hut along the way. The rain got bigger and bigger and I was cold and wet! After a while, I thought I saw someone in red running in the rain at the opp side of the reservior (he was in red top that day) but the person didn't run to my hut =(

After a while, the person in red turn up again. He was holding an umbrella and half running towards my hut. My dear was actually running in the rain .. he was only 3/4 way finishing the round when it started raining. Instead of seeking shelter in the downpour, he was worried that I was alone. He continued running as fast as he can and went to the car to get the umbrella to look for me. He didn't want me to be alone in the rain; he was also worried that if the rain continue I might end up being late for the wedding dinner... My silly, thoughtful dear. =)

Seriously, when I saw him carrying the umbrella and walking towards me in the rain, 我决得自己是幸福的。
I felt really treasured and safe... I was standing there with a silly smile on my face, waiting for him to reach me.